I’m struggling. What I’m trying to do is figure out what I’m trying to do while trying to do it. Even writing that sentence makes me laugh out loud because I know what I can do and what would be valuable to the people would would pay me to do it; however, it’s a multi-purpose deliverable and “consultant” is the only thing that makes sense right now. And, since it’s housed inside of a membership service, there are a lot more opportunities to explore the other aspects like pooling capital to tackle specific projects, kickstarter style.

That said, I’ve been at this for the better part of 7 years, trying and failing to figure it out, thus making a meager living and not fully confident to scale. I’ve had lots of conversations, likely not with all the right people, but enough that something should have clicked. There were times that my brain had a full visual of what that ultimate vision looks like, yet the day to day work continues to elude me.

Maybe that’s because it’s not something I’m particularly passionate about. At the same time, it’s really hard to be passionate about something you haven’t fully figured out. I’ve already competed in many of the toughest businesses out there. If all I wanted to do was a me too business, then I’d go back to publishing financial newsletters. That’s not at all what I’m looking to do. So, no, I don’t think I’ll give up… just yet.

Notes from the journey through existence. 20+ years analyzing and forecasting complex assets at the highest level of the economy.